Child Abuse, Immigration, and Everything in between.

Im so sick of people complaining about 1070, I dont understand the full law but I do know this... My stepmom is from Australia she could have easily lived in this country done nothing to even get a green card. But the fact of the matter is she has lived up to her responisbilities and got one almost 8 years ago. I do not think that it is fair that she paid a heck of a lot of money to get one and yet people still come here and live illegally. I work at a high school where there are several undocumented children... HELLO thats where scholarship money is going....

Child abuse

Seriously!!! Abusing a baby is about the worst thing next to murdering a baby that you can do. It makes me so Mad and hurt that anyone could ever abuse their child. I went into the field that I am in to try and prevent it... I am realizing that you can never prevent the abuse just prevent a child from being killed by the abuse.

I am so grateful that I have a baby girl that I love and a husband who loves us no matter what.
Thanks to God I have life and I have happiness!

today is gonna be the day that I throw it all back to you.

Why why why.... Taylor has been crazy all day, I cant seem to do anything right, A friend that I allowed my daughter to think of as an aunt doesnt even show up to her party on saturday... kind of happened at my baby shower as well, different friend didnt show up .... Im done, I will not be living in glendale when nick leaves if I dont go with him, only two friends that I have here would never ever be as rude and disrespectful to me... they to have done things that I do not approve of but through marriage and kids have turned their lives around I cant say God because people who believe in God still do things that I do not agree with....

I have never had this kind of luck with friends nor have i ever felt more embarrassed that I had to come up with excuses for them... I am married with a child if you donot like it please please please dont even attempt a friendship with me.

I do have issues as do many others, I know that I have not dealt with them in a manner that needed to be dealt with and I am now working on that!

But as i stated in my previous post YOU DONOT WANT MY LIFE... quit being jealous!

To everyone who is considering me as a friend...

Consider this before

I have a one year old who goes to bed at 7 pm.... which means instead of going out at 7 I am usually coming home to put her to bed.

I am married, my husband comes before all else, if he doesnt want to do something on a friday or saturday night the only two nights we get to spend time together, then we DONT go.

I am married to the military, we could get orders the day before they send us... I have no choice in this matter!

I have to much on my plate to deal with your drama of break ups, parental fights, and most of all I am NOT going to come get you if you are to drunk to drive home.

I have lived the college life already, I partied till 3 am or 6 am, I am over that, I have a family that I am responisble for now.

I am taking classes, so if I do not feel like hanging out every day this is why, I take my school work pretty seriously.

Most of all, if you are just going to get jealous of my life please dont even bother. Trust me although I have a great husband and an amazing daughter.... THE Rest of my life you do not want! ( but I will Gladly trade you any day!)

I am writing this out of pure frustration...

Here we go...

this post is acting more as a prayer to God...

God,
You are my strength, the safe place that I find myself coming back to, I love it! Today lord as you know i face giants... an appointment that no 21 year old should be going to... Praying lord that whatever the news that Nick and I will take it and it will only make us stronger... We have been through so much in a year and a half of marriage, but we have gotten through it because we have you as our strong point! I pray lord that you give taylor strength to get better fast! To calm my worried nerves that she is going to be ok! You have given the drs wisdom lord i know it! The fear that i have is that i to am going to leave my daughter behind at a young age... I dont want to lord please help me to change! Help me to do everything in my power to make sure my heart gets better! I pray that you to will aide in the recovery of my heart and that I will only be a stronger person because of it! I pray lord for everyone that has a spouse,son,brother,friend cousin or uncle that has served in iraq lord this is hard as I to almost had to face a deployment. I realize now lord if i just trust in you that you will take all of my fears and worries off my shoulder! I pray lord that you be with me in making a list of teens that need to go to camp... Your work is never finished lord!
I love you forever!
amen