Having the weekend to really talk to my husband about his deployment has opened my eyes in a whole new way... I understand now that him not going and fighting for his country in his mind makes him feel helpless. I understand now that he is an American soldier and I am serving my country by being his wife... which although difficult at times, means being strong.
I have God on my side, I will pray everyday with Taylor that daddy will be brought home to us safe! But still in my head I ask...
Wake me up when september ends?
Saturday, February 27, 2010
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Money isnt everything...
Free oil change Free childcare Free Free everything, I dont care! If it meant having to pay for all those things to keep my husband on american soil Im for it!
Thats what He was told at the briefing... dont worry about your wife we will take care of her... what if i dont want them to? Huh did anyone ever ask me that... NO.
And everyone that says it is only for four months, If you were married would you be saying that? Nick is my life now, He is my everything I love him! Would you send the one you love off to war and say oh well its only four months! I dont care if it is four months or four weeks or four days! its to long!
Yes the pay is nice, but they pay you more because he is going to a war zone... money really isnt everything. Im not saying i dont agree with the war, i do. BUT it is so different when someone you love and care about is leaving to go to it.
But I know Taylor and I will manage, We can do this.
Again I ask, Wake me up when september ends?
Thats what He was told at the briefing... dont worry about your wife we will take care of her... what if i dont want them to? Huh did anyone ever ask me that... NO.
And everyone that says it is only for four months, If you were married would you be saying that? Nick is my life now, He is my everything I love him! Would you send the one you love off to war and say oh well its only four months! I dont care if it is four months or four weeks or four days! its to long!
Yes the pay is nice, but they pay you more because he is going to a war zone... money really isnt everything. Im not saying i dont agree with the war, i do. BUT it is so different when someone you love and care about is leaving to go to it.
But I know Taylor and I will manage, We can do this.
Again I ask, Wake me up when september ends?
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Military First... Family Second
So this is what it is like to be a military wife, my husband is in the AF, and plans on remaining in the AF till he can retire.
I always knew that he had been trained to put his country over his family, but did I believe it no. I didnt believe it until my husband came home with his deployment orders... when I stated I cant believe they are sending you when we just had our daughter nine months ago... he replied They are not forcing me to go I volunteered.... WHOA
I was angry hurt confused and scared. But I was reminded by fellow military wives that he does place his country the military over his family. I never thought being an air force wife that I would ever have to deal with deployment. I knew it was possible yes, but the thought that Nick would volunteer for it had never crossed my mind.
So as of tomorrow we will go to a briefing and I will be told how I need to be strong and support him and all of the stuff they have to tell you.... But between you and me this is the hardest thing to do. Yes I will support him i will support whatever he wants to do, but staying strong thats gonna be hard.
HE will leave in may and return the middle of september... yes we are lucky taylor and i will only be apart from nick for 4 months...
Wake me up when september ends?
I always knew that he had been trained to put his country over his family, but did I believe it no. I didnt believe it until my husband came home with his deployment orders... when I stated I cant believe they are sending you when we just had our daughter nine months ago... he replied They are not forcing me to go I volunteered.... WHOA
I was angry hurt confused and scared. But I was reminded by fellow military wives that he does place his country the military over his family. I never thought being an air force wife that I would ever have to deal with deployment. I knew it was possible yes, but the thought that Nick would volunteer for it had never crossed my mind.
So as of tomorrow we will go to a briefing and I will be told how I need to be strong and support him and all of the stuff they have to tell you.... But between you and me this is the hardest thing to do. Yes I will support him i will support whatever he wants to do, but staying strong thats gonna be hard.
HE will leave in may and return the middle of september... yes we are lucky taylor and i will only be apart from nick for 4 months...
Wake me up when september ends?
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