I think I need to put my future on hold.

So as I type this I am in tears, not because I will have to put my future on hold but because Taylor is regressing and there is nothing I can do about it. We are back to only mushy foods and though we are making progress with an open cup she seems to be taking steps backwards with her feedings.

With Taylors diagnosis of Autism I knew that there would be many obstacles that we would have to cross... did I ever think a 30 hour + intensive therapy would be one of them? NOT at all, But now as I sit here and am weighing the pros and cons... It really can only help her Right? As of now we already have 5 therapies a week... Developemnt, physical, Ot, Speech, and now feeding on fridays... Someone please tell me that this is not going to last forever that my beautiful girl is going to grow out of this what seems like a neverending nightmare!

I have fears.... one day Addyson will pass taylor and I wont know how to respond to it. I have a fear that all of this therapy is going to be to much for taylor and she is going to regress even further. I have a fear that the stress it is taking on my body wont be good...

I need Nick back, this super mom is done doing this alone.

Alligators,Hurricanes,& a Beach...

Yuppp if by now you have not guessed it we are headed to the great state of Florida! I told my mother in law when I missed Nick's call earlier that either we got orders or he is going TDY... either one would be fine I just needed to know! well a very slow 30 mins later he called back and said..... we are going to florida ( he stated which base but for safety and security purposes I will not be posting it.) All I could say was YAY! I was relieved that his report no later date was october 11th which meant that HE WILL DEF BE HOME IN SEPTEMBER!

I wanted to cry tears of joy and as I type this I am... It is hard for me to leave this wonderful state... but its time to move on with our lives and start fresh... ( no drama, no family, and just the 4 of us together at last!) this does not mean that I will not miss everyone here.... but we are military we move thats life!

Now whether to be anxious, nervous, or stressed.... for now the fun starts! Thank God we dont have to house hunt ( nick and I have an agreement that we will never live off base... the community and friends that we make on base is 100 times better than when we lived off base! ) Plus the great thing is we dont have to worry about anything!

I am so thankful for the last 8 months for it has taught me sacrifice and strength... for all who told me I would never make it through this separation can I laugh at you now or later?


Oh and I have never and I will never cheat on my husband and HE DOES NOT HIT ME... please drama driven people get out of my life!