So as I type this I am in tears, not because I will have to put my future on hold but because Taylor is regressing and there is nothing I can do about it. We are back to only mushy foods and though we are making progress with an open cup she seems to be taking steps backwards with her feedings.
With Taylors diagnosis of Autism I knew that there would be many obstacles that we would have to cross... did I ever think a 30 hour + intensive therapy would be one of them? NOT at all, But now as I sit here and am weighing the pros and cons... It really can only help her Right? As of now we already have 5 therapies a week... Developemnt, physical, Ot, Speech, and now feeding on fridays... Someone please tell me that this is not going to last forever that my beautiful girl is going to grow out of this what seems like a neverending nightmare!
I have fears.... one day Addyson will pass taylor and I wont know how to respond to it. I have a fear that all of this therapy is going to be to much for taylor and she is going to regress even further. I have a fear that the stress it is taking on my body wont be good...
I need Nick back, this super mom is done doing this alone.
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