Vent.

Yup I get to see my husband in 9 days or so... and yup I am gonna smile like I havent in a while! After the last 10 months I have come to a realization that I really only have a handful of true friends... and even then I realize that only a couple would actually be considered true.

HERE IT GOES... ( If I offend you well maybe you should not have pissed me off.)

I dont bend over backwards for just anyone... I felt that I could help you and yet that wasnt good enough... But you know I guess I am just not as needy as you.

Yes My husband is serving our country and yes I am damn proud of him but when he has only seen his second daughter for 2 weeks and she is already 6 months old I am sorry yes I will take the opportunity to fly with two kids so he can enjoy her before she becomes a toddler. You just had the chance to see your significant other not to long ago, my husband and the father of our children has not had personal contact with us for almost 7 months... yes this is the military and I would go another year if this opportunity was not presented to us. So dont ask for sympathy that you miss your boyfriend when hey sorry I havent got to hug my HUSBAND in 6 months. Really thats all I want after this horrible year ( well it wasnt that bad.) of Cancer, Taylors special needs, and the birth of Addyson * which wasnt horrible* I just really could have used my husband here. So yes me flying to see him is needed ... even if he comes home in september!

I have enjoyed this last year as I truly feel like I have finally been a mother to two beautiful girls... I have had to take on all the responsiblity of them and I love it! More importantly when I step off that plane in south korea and I know that I just accomplished a 13+hour travel with two kids by myself please dont even talk to me.

I love you Nick and I can not wait to see you!!

Update.

Taylor- down to 20 lbs and still slowly eating on her own terms... I have never been more scared nor nervous for what is to come with her... I hope I am trying my best but you never know. She is approx 32 inches tall and is slowly putting words together to form sentences!

Addyson- Oh my this little baby girl is growing so fast!! 6 months old and weighs 11 lbs and is 30 inches long :) Sitting and rolling are her favorite things :) She is a grabber... plays with toys she can grab and eat... def more of a smiley happy baby then tay was. :)

Nick- 96 days left... He is so ready to see his little girls again and of course spend time with his wife! he is even more excited that we are flying to see him in 11 days!!

Janine I am doing alright... tired as hell but I love these kids and bedtime is me watching my precious angels sleep! I have had my round of friends lately... I bend over backwards for people to just be slapped in the face... Some never talk to me others talk to me and then do stuff behind my back... If only i had the nerve to delete people and erase them from my future. All I can say is watch out .... You will have no friends left if you continue to do so... another thing recently that has been irritating me is I have a few friends that are married military or they are dating military and they have the nerve to say i want my significant other out of the service... I say leave them alone that is their career and if they told you to end your career you would be mad. You knew they were in the service so suck it up. :)

I love that I have had this experience for it really has taught me the greatness of being a mother.. I use to rely on nick to help with everything and now I dont have to because I know I can do it my self. I love my life