Vent.

Yup I get to see my husband in 9 days or so... and yup I am gonna smile like I havent in a while! After the last 10 months I have come to a realization that I really only have a handful of true friends... and even then I realize that only a couple would actually be considered true.

HERE IT GOES... ( If I offend you well maybe you should not have pissed me off.)

I dont bend over backwards for just anyone... I felt that I could help you and yet that wasnt good enough... But you know I guess I am just not as needy as you.

Yes My husband is serving our country and yes I am damn proud of him but when he has only seen his second daughter for 2 weeks and she is already 6 months old I am sorry yes I will take the opportunity to fly with two kids so he can enjoy her before she becomes a toddler. You just had the chance to see your significant other not to long ago, my husband and the father of our children has not had personal contact with us for almost 7 months... yes this is the military and I would go another year if this opportunity was not presented to us. So dont ask for sympathy that you miss your boyfriend when hey sorry I havent got to hug my HUSBAND in 6 months. Really thats all I want after this horrible year ( well it wasnt that bad.) of Cancer, Taylors special needs, and the birth of Addyson * which wasnt horrible* I just really could have used my husband here. So yes me flying to see him is needed ... even if he comes home in september!

I have enjoyed this last year as I truly feel like I have finally been a mother to two beautiful girls... I have had to take on all the responsiblity of them and I love it! More importantly when I step off that plane in south korea and I know that I just accomplished a 13+hour travel with two kids by myself please dont even talk to me.

I love you Nick and I can not wait to see you!!