I remember when he first left I cried for days. Not in front of the girls but when they were asleep or busy I would cry... I felt so alone and sleeping alone was horrible those first couple of weeks. But as everyone told me I soon got into a routine and those first 4 months flew by. Then he was home for Addyson's birth and then gone right after we brought her home... I remember then not being able to control my emotions but I stayed strong for the girls. 7 months later I got the opportunity to fly to see him and we took it. Here we are now, and as much as everything I have experienced this last year that was horrible that everyone said I needed my husband home... I am glad he wasn't, i know you are saying "what?" I proved that I was strong, that I am a military wife who is here supporting him ...
Now as I sit here- crying in front of Taylor... She looks at me and said " mommy, no sad." When I said I am not ready to leave daddy again... she said "I okay." This sweet sweet girl has helped me to stay strong in more ways then one. But the surprise of our little conversation was... when she said "momma, i no leave daddy..." <--- this is what got my tears really going. If only sweet girl if only we could take him with us now.
Here it goes one last goodbye- its only for 3 1/2 weeks but it is still a goodbye and that is the difficult part despite any time apart.
Here is to being strong again!
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