What is your purpose in life?

This morning I went to an interview for a position as a social worker in a drug rehabilitation facility. First of all, let me start by stating I admire anyone who is able to overcome addiction. The lady conducting the interview went through a series of the normal questions. When asked me to tell her about myself, I started in on how I was married with two beautiful daughters one whom is special needs - well that is where she stopped me. She asked about Taylor and after I explained almost everything, she asked me to tell her what my purpose was in life before I had children - I could not answer the question, I mean I could spit out a zillion different answers that are generic - but I could honestly not answer the question. She said well that is interesting, you are so young and yet you can not tell me what your purpose was before you had children. Out of all due respect, I responded... I can simply not find an honest answer. 

she then went on to ask me, what is your purpose now? That was easy - to make the best life possible for my daughters and to love them unconditionally, I have added something new in to my response - that is to seek God in everything I do. For some of you already know this, but I went through an extreme hatred phase about a year ago... I still struggle and I lean on strong christian friends to help guide me. Anyhow back to the interview, the lady asked me why I chose to go the child advocate route, my response, so special needs children have a voice when no one else will listen. To that, she raised her eye brows. This offended me and to this moment I still am, our country is ignorant to special needs children. Everyone wants to think that they know and understand, but really until you have one of your own to take care of, to parent, to protect - trust me when I say you do not fully understand. 

Before Taylor, I could have cared less about special needs and what came with it. sure I worked with them, I had the heart for them, but I certainly did not care after 5pm when they went home. This scares me, after seeing all of the posts on FB this week about the first week of school and the "horror" stories I am scared to send Taylor to school without her having an advocate every step of the way. We can say that their parents are their biggest advocates and that may be true, but you still do not fully understand until you have that "outside" person who has an insight into the world that we are stuck in. 

So to the lady who conducted my interview, if you want to raise your eye brows - do so... but next time give me a chance to explain myself. Thanks :) 

So here is to hoping there was a place for me to minister and counsel drug addicts. I can only pray.