Is this really God's plan? Or am I just pretending?

So about a month ago, Nick and I made a commitment to return to church - I think we were just tired of being stuck and really needed to seek out God and have His help in figuring out what we were meant to do. As most of you know, Nick got into some trouble at work and there for a while we were unsure where his career in the military was headed. This was a very stressful time and it still very much is. Nick has a pt test next month that will make or break him.

Anyhow, during the months of July, August, and September... Nick and I were forced to trust God and really re evaluate where we were in our faith and where our lives were going. It was around this time that we decided to give Church a try again. Now Nick and I were both raised Lutheran... However, we did not decide to go back to the Lutheran church - Not saying we are switching denominations, just where we are at in our walk with christ, we really needed to find a church that would take us where we were at and have the come as you are attitude.

Thus, began our journey at a methodist church near us, The children's program is very accomodating to Taylor and addyson and the come as your are worship service held in their gym is an all around rock out for jesus kind of experience.

So needless to say, Loud music and come as you are really drew Nick and Myself in.

Now we are at a point in our lives where we are questioning if this is all really God's plan for us - are we meant to stay military? Am I meant to finish my Masters? All of these questions and some have popped up in the last few months.

I think what really gets me still is Taylor. I mean, that is why I ran away from god. I did not understand that there was this God who loved me enough to give me the strength to rely on him to get us through everything with Taylor. I mean look at where we are at, 2 years ago, Taylor was not walking or talking. WE were in therapies and going strong but she was no where near where she needed to be.

Now 2 years later, she is still behind but man is she ever making excellent progress. Therapies three times a week, School starting in January. Its going to be a bumpy ride. But we have made it this far. And for that I am thankful.

So God, if this is your plan for our life, I thank you. For it truly has made me realize that life is not all glory and excitement... it is filled with challenges and heartache.


Have a blessed week :)