Strong?

Thats the word that I cant seem to get out of my head today.... Im suppose to be strong, strong for my husband strong for my daughter, and most of all strong for the little one growing inside of me...

The assignments people tell me not to stress, the dr says do not stress..... BUT I ask is it your spouse going on a tour for ONE year without his family? Who am I kidding that Nick and I are not stressed. We have a baby on the way and more than anything nick knows that I need him here.... BUT MILITARY first... Family Second. Thats how this life works... so why Cant I just deal with that and move on? Why can I not trust that God is in CONTROL?

Lucky for me I have a pretty HUGE support system ... Nick will be leaving in september for a YEAR there is no getting out of this one... Which means to anniversaries he will miss, a two year old birthday and the birth of his second child, a Thanksgiving and a Christmas, a Easter, a 4th of July.... all these holidays will be spent apart....

IF I hear one more person complaining that they are away from their husband for longer then a 8 hour work shift, im going to scream.... ITS LIFE people... Try military life for one week! I guarantee you could not handle the long hours and constant not knowing what comes next.

I do complain a lot... but hello the stress of not knowing what is in store for the future kills me.

So I ask you to please wake me up in september of 2011.

Janine