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What scares me the most out of Nick leaving for a year is suddenly I cant be in control... When my mother died I was 10, when my father died I was 20.... I never felt more out of control than those two times... Yes nick is going to Korea, but that is still in another country where I cant just easily get to him if something happens... Im not in control.

I just pray that these next 2 weeks go slower than ever... I need every moment.

Peace