our greatest fear is fear itself.

I dont usually reveal many of my fears but I think it is time to start. So if you dont want to read this thats okay. I need to tell someone and this is the way I am choosing to do so.

For every fear I am going to try to find someway to overcome it:

I have the fear of loosing another parent ( i only have one left -- I was blessed with three parents.)

I have the fear of something happening to my husband.

I have the fear of not being in control of situations.

I have the fear of hospitals ( this stems from both parents being in the hospital.)

I have the fear of something happening to either one of my daughters.

I have the fear of the NICU and that what happened with Taylor is going to happen with Addyson.

I have a fear of delivering addyson without my husband.

I have the fear that one day I to will pass on and leave my girls and husband behind.

But through all of these fears I am only stronger because I will survive them. My husband is a great support from which I draw all of my strength from. He may not be able to be here for the birth of our daughter ( who is our last child we will be having ) But he is doing something far greater than being here and I am proud of him. Addyson and Taylor both will one day complain about their father being away doing his duty to his country and I too will be able to comfort their fears. I guess that is another fear I have dealing with my childrens fears.

Thanks for reading this.