I had hopes and dreams for you, Although I was shocked and scared as hell when I found out that i was pregnant with you... I had them. I had a hope that you would both be successful individuals, that you would love your sisters and fight with them, that you would leave your matchbox cars out in the floor and I would trip on them... See I had dreams.
Yesterday you both surprised us with leaving this world ( even in my womb ) to join Jesus and all the angels in Heaven. Part of me is jealous because your grandfather and grandmother got to hold you first. Then part of me is glad that you are being taken care of.
I know that when it is the right time we will be blessed with a son - now is not that time. For I am thankful, I get a little extra time loving the two beautiful children that I have. To focus on them, to help them fulfill their dreams and goals. We do plan on one day having a third child, by whatever means neccesary ... Despite what a lot of people thought this time around, I was healthy enough to carry a child - all of my medical conditions were under control... and I knew that although I was scared that it would all be okay.
Nick and I have heavy hearts. I dont think anyone should ever have to go through a miscarriage - I have had a few people tell me, well its not like you knew the baby... you didnt get to see them. Any mother - when they find out that they are pregnant - Immediatly become attached and have a strong bond with their unborn child.
So rest in peace, Alexander Michael and William Scott. For only the good die young. <3
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