Fake or Real?!

Since we have moved to Florida, our lives have changed in more ways than one -

- Taylor's Seizure's have returned - and we are even more concerned and worried why they have returned... Her speech is improving but like with everything else we will have set backs and regression and with each seizure there is a regression in some form. She will never stop amazing us with her miracles - even the tiny ones... she is a blessing and we are blessed to be her parents.

- Addyson started walking - It saddens me that unlike Taylor who we have to teach every little thing to, addyson does things before we even get to teach her... I am thankful that we have one "normal" kid - but like I have said before countless times I am not sure there is a normal anymore... and if there is one, I dont know what it looks like. We will take whatever addyson wants to teach us - she has taught us a lot so has her sister. Patience is one of those teachings and I am reminded daily of it.

Nick re enlists here soon, and although I am not sure I can look back on the last 4 years and be "thankful" for all of it, I know there are times that I am certainly thankful he took the military career for instance the birth of both of our daughters - that would have been a heck of a medical expense... the countless medical problems Taylor and I both face, also the chance to prove our love and marriage is strong... being apart for the year while he did his tour in south korea proved time and time again that life makes love look hard, that nothing not even being seperated by oceans could change that. He is my soul mate, the love of my life, and my best friend... He is Nick - also with moving to florida came our 3 year wedding anniversary - whoa! Florida sure is crazy, but i am hoping that the military has a plan for us and we will follow nick wherever he is sent.

Me - Healthwise I am not so good, I see a cardiologist, neurologist, and my normal pcm... I take approx 7 pills daily but that hasnt stopped me... I am just reminded that there will always be Giants or mountains that I am going to have to climb and having the friends and family to support me will always be helpful. School and Career wise - Let me introduce to you the career college student, why yes I can not make up my mind it seems with what I want to do... I know I want to go to med school and I really would love to go to Harvard med but with recent health problems and the kiddos I think it is best for now to just stay home and focus on all that is on my plate. As hard as it is for me to not have my choice career I need to be thankful I do have two degrees and a husband who is willing to wait while I decide what it is I want to do. I love being home with the girls, but trust me the moment they go to school - it is this momma's time to focus on herself and her career. :)

I hope that this post finds you all well, and that the true friends I have are still kicking... Florida has brought out the best in me and has made me realize that "fake" is not okay - So Janine is here and if you do not like what I have to say then sorry - there is a delete button on fb and I will continue to all my friends to keep it real. :) xoxox