Change.

Success is falling into bed at night knowing that you did the best that you could do.

At times I am overwhelmed and several friends and family have heard this come out of my mouth lately.

You know when you are a little kid and you are asked what you are going to be when you grow up and most kids have no idea and ramble something off thats crazy - Ya I always said dr, vet, or something to help others...

Not once till I got older did I realize that I wanted to be a mother - and I would search and I would find the best father for my children... Little did I know that I would find it so soon... I was 18 when I met nick - 18 YOUNG... Did I ever think I would be a mother by 20? Nope - but I am cherishing every moment...

Today I had to fight back tears in the Neurologist's office as I realized just what we are up against with Taylor - I was answering questions wondering in the back of my head - what if Addyson was born at 31 weeks as well... But she wasnt we were blessed to keep her in till 35 weeks.... But I fear because Addy is coming up to the same age taylor was that we started noticing tay was behind that I fear addy will be the same...


But I have to remember I went to bed - EVERY night knowing that I did the best I could as a mother, wife and a friend...

Lately - people seem to think that their decisions whether right or wrong need to affect EVERYONE... when in reality they affect no one but who they choose to involve... Which is why I am done - so many marriages these days are based off of lies - as well as friendships... A lot of people hide behind their keyboards... It is crazy to me.

Well off I go to bed... .Somewhere sometime you all will understand the feeling of being overwhelmed and when you do I will be there!!