Not really a title to put here

The last couple of months have really shook my core values and morals around quite a bit... Now I must say this post is in NO way judging anyone ...

I became good friends with two girls, at the time one was planning a divorce ( how you plan one I am not really sure, but if I could write a novel on her life I would...) The other until recently it appeared she was extremely happy in her marriage and really shook my world when she announced she was getting a divorce, I guess appearance is not always a good thing to go off of.

Taylor's seizures returned and with them brought a set back in her developement - I thought with having Nick home it would mean that I would have him by myside at all of her therapies... I was wrong - and without realizing it I scheduled her evaluations in the two most important therapies on the same day my husband has his PT test.

My health has its ups and downs more downs really than ups, gallbladder/appendix, then my migraines that turned into partial complex seizures, now low blood pressure instead of high and a hole in my heart... I am a fighter though and am learning to just push on...

Addyson started walking and let me tell you this little girl can GO - I am so thankful that I was here to see her take her first steps and everything, if I would have kept going on my career driven mindset I would be missing out on all of these firsts.

So how does all of this help me put life into perspective at the moment - for one I do have a supportive, non cheating husband - He has morals that I admire, we have been lately really having some deep discussions and are growing in our marriage, I honestly can say that I am happy I always have been from the first day I met my husband.. the kind of happiness you pray about.

I also had a good friend who wrote a book called Shouting at God - If you havent read it please do! It has helped piece together not neccesarily why things happen the way they do - but more so that its okay to "shout" at God .. I wont give to much more away from it, That is my take on the book and I loved it!

So as I sit here - the girls are asleep, Nicks father is visiting and he is also in bed ... I just have my music playing and I am enjoying some 'quiet time' to listen to my heart and relax before I head to bed...

I am thankful that I have each and everyone of you in my life! <3